This morning I went to the localest church, ECG. (Uithoorn Evangelical Christian Fellowship) again. I asked the kids to come with me to try it out, but nobody did.
I sat with E & A, the 2 cute older ladies who looked after me last week, and this week I had my notebook, and I decided to just note down anything i could grasp from the sermon. As I entered, the welcoming lady said: it’s communion, and if you would like to take part, just stand up when asked, state your name & say if you are a child of God. OK! I will.
We sang quite a few songs, which is good for me, as I have learnt the power of worship. I only knew 2 of the songs this week: ‘Meekness & Majesty’ and ‘Jesus, All For Jesus’. Obv the Dutch versions.
Then E’s husband got up to preach. I worked very hard/strained to catch the meaning. I said last week that if the Lord chooses for us to go here, then He will attend to the language barrier! But I seemed to have grabbed the responsibiity back for myself, with both hands!
I caught quite some of his gist, and it contained a very pertinent message for me. I was disappointed that no-one came with me, because I am so impatient to see what they think about this church. I am so impatient to know where God wants us & to be sure about everything. I want to rely on my own knowledge to compartmentalise things and get things sorted.
He was preaching on Joshua 9, but he read out Isaiah 30:
“Woe to the obstinate children,”
declares the Lord,
“to those who carry out plans that are not mine,
forming an alliance, but not by my Spirit,
heaping sin upon sin;
2 who go down to Egypt
without consulting me;
who look for help to Pharaoh’s protection,
to Egypt’s shade for refuge.
3 But Pharaoh’s protection will be to your shame,
Egypt’s shade will bring you disgrace.
and spoke of the battle being in the heavenly realms, not flesh & blood (vlees en bloed) , referred us to the armour of God and Eph 3:10
Well I found it very helpful. Then at communion i just stood up & said, “Hello, ik heet Marian en ik vertrouw op de Heer”. (Hello I’m Marian and I trust in the Lord) and that was fine. I was a bit emotional as ever during the songs & communion. So glad to be included at the Lord’s table and in the sacrifice & held safely in the church. But also a bit sad about missing the loving church/family I chose to leave behind.
“All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these into Your hands
For it’s only in Your will that I am free” (lyrics by Robin Mark)
Afterwards I chatted with D & J, two ladies closer to my own age about the family & stuff, And got invited to their Start of the season BBQ/funday next week. They assure me that everyone will be happy to speak to the fam in English. oo-er i was one of the last to leave as I got chatting with this bloke A, an elder or whatever they call them here. I’m only putting initials to protect privacy but also hardly any of them have had names I’ve heard of! And I have no idea how to spell.
I enjoyed it again.